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Dear Ex, take good care of yourself. We love you. ❤️

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Such a damn shame. It doesn't help that they often ignore what the idiot doctors say and do their own thing. She deserved better

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Oceandander identity has been officially recognized by the sublime porte

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Wow. It's starting to sound just like the Swedish Death Records Study, (Cecelia Dhejne, et al, Karolinska Inst. 2011) in which they found that natal females post op (surgeries 1973-2003) were 40 TIMES more likely to have died by suicide than age matched controls. In this study of 388 'trans' post op patients' death records, with 5 same sex age-matched controls and 5 "same gender" age matched controls' death records, Dhejne, et al decided to average the natal males' higher suicide rate with the females' shocking rate (males were only 14 times higher than controls' records) so as to hide the 40 times higher. No one can claim Dhejne, et al, were "transphobes" looking for this result. Apollo might be presenting a common phenomenon though, which doctors are apparently ignoring: taking more T than recommended. We all know she might have later had kidney failure or liver cancer. Thanks Ex, for this info. Do take care and consider moving out of tsunami range!

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I've lived here 20 years and this was the first tsunami alert I got. It made me nostalgic for Nagoya.

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The media world including the adult content creation biz are another big industry profiting off these people. Nobody mentions it much but I hope it starts to get scrutinized.

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Unfortunately, many of the people who are trans allies are also into "sex work is work" and would think it was perfectly fine for young people to prostitute themselves in any form.

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I have had so many people reach out to me to plead with me to please think of her loved ones. Delete you tweets out of respect for them. Like clearly something was seriously lacking in her upbringing and peer group, and now she's dead after substance abuse, self mutilation, nightmarish avoidable medical trauma, and years as a bdsm porn producer. Whatever respect I may have for them collectively, their motive is to cover for their own reputation at this point. They know damn well they failed her. They're just in denial. What can be learned from her story and the cautionary tale it represents is more important than their egos. They'll be in pain either way.

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The best thing you can do for Apollo's memory is to share her story to prevent other deaths.

I agree it must be traumatic for the family, but it can prevent that trauma for other families. Hiding what happened will not help anyone else.

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That whole sex work is empowerment was a very clever & catchy thing that industry created.

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"Top surgery" and "bottom surgery" are also very clever euphemisms that distract from the gravity of what is really going on.

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The elective plastic surgeries they get are SO EXPENSIVE that they resort to sex work.

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Seems like this person finally figured out what she did to herself and couldn’t handle it.

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It must have been serious because her final video didn't include the obligatory line: 'i am so happy with my results; i don't regret a single thing'.

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Another one. So incredibly sad. And these stories are ones you've found because they post online. I'm sure there are plenty we don't see or hear. The tragedy of this generation. Thanks for bringing light to these sad stories.

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Very fast question: can those organs be donated? I mean , used?

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I was thinking the same! with all that extra testosterone and who knows what else ? :|

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I am so tired of fighting this. It is even more tiring to realize most people don't care.

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'Roid Rage, directed at oneself.

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I love that you said "completed" rather than the other word that is often used, making it sound like an achievement.Also cute hair and cute ribbon, and glad that fella spoke for all of you. I, too, do not want you to die (or me)

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Another young woman, full of potential, taken from the world too soon.

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Hannah was let down by the butchers of trans and the abusive business of porn, both "businesses should be permanently stopped. I don't think she could mentally cope with the depression of friends committing suicide, the realisation that she had mutilated herself for nothing, the scars inflicted on her and the "sex work is work" lies that the porn abusers peddle. A life destroyed far too soon and imo lost to the trans insanity

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Glad you are safe, Exulansic. Stay safe!

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